29 January 2011

morbid.

i have a morbid imagination. it stinks.

it's not rational. usually i think of these things when my mind is at its least busy, such as when i was in my ninth grade science class or, more recently, driving to and from school. it's awful--sometimes i'll get so worked up about it i'll be teary-eyed with fear of my imaginings coming true.

the most common one is that i always imagine getting a phone call from an unrecognizable number and hearing 911 tell me that [insert loved one here] is in the hospital after a horrible car crash.

sometimes i'll imagine someone breaking into our apartment when i'm alone and having to stave them off with nothing but our extra-heavy frying pans.

one time i watched this freak-documentary thing about people who did horrible things while they sleepwalked, like killing their family members, and didn't remember it in the morning. that gives me a lot of morbid-imagination time.

i'm always slightly nervous being in the bathroom when the shower curtain is closed, because what if someone is hiding behind it?

seriously. what is wrong with me?

4 comments:

Jacqui said...

OH MY GOSH I'm the EXACT same way! Seriously I am always doing that and I dont know why I do it. Ha i totally know how you feel!

Camille Giullian said...

I do the exact same thing with the shower curtain... it probably drives people crazy because I always open their curtains when I'm in the bathroom. Otherwise I'll have a panic attack.
How come we've never talked about our morbid imaginations together? Because I have the same thing.

Dana said...

"For God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power and of love, and of a strong mind." (at least I'm pretty sure that is how it goes)...I say that to myself when fear starts to grip me...

lauren said...

i watched the same documentary. scared the hell outta me for weeks.